remembering mary oliver

In her 2016 book of essays, Upstream, Mary Oliver wrote about her Great Ones - writers of the past whose philosophies and ideas guided her own experience of the world. “With them I live my life,” she wrote; “with them I enter the event, mold the meditation, keep if I can some essence of the hour, even as it slips away.” Oliver’s Great Ones included Wordsworth, Shelley, Emerson, and Thoreau, to name a few. “My great ones will be different from your great ones,” she advised. I smile as I recognize that of all my Great Ones, Mary herself tops the list.

For Mary Oliver

 
Photo: Rachel Giese Brown

Photo: Rachel Giese Brown

You are living, always,

in the space between breaths.

Gentle, you held the moments,

sensing their fragility

like eggshells on rocks.

Now the moments hold you.

The trees return your embrace,

recognizing,

honoring,

seeing in you what you saw in them;

the foxes, the sparrows, the wild geese,

the doe who met you in silence,

dear sweet redbird,

the turtles, and the grasshopper -

this grasshopper, I mean -

and the prayer-grass and the mountains,

and the stones that wear patience like a face -

all the wonders of your world wonder at your life.

They bow their heads -

the streams and the mountains, all -

and they say:

here there was a child of ecstacy,

a wild and holy thing,

and how we loved to watch her dance.

 

© CASEE MARIE

At Cliff's Edge

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I want to breathe,

deeply and vigorously,

with the wild sensation

of my own aliveness,

the staggering awareness

of being whole.

I want to learn to rest

in a moment,

to honor it,

and to fold myself

into presence.

I want to know

what it feels like to move

through the moments with ease

and grace.

I want to be of space,

open and glorious

and made of stars.

I want to touch

the tender core

of love with hands

that know truth,

compassion,

devotion.

And through it all

the exhilarating act,

to breathe.

 

© CASEE MARIE

 

Further reading…

Eternity

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Take this feeling from me
and instead
give
me
abandon;
give me the earth-body
made of clay
and roots,
stone heart
and willowed spirit.

Cast me to the wild
at once a seedling
and a wizened oak
give me moss flesh
and dew-drop eyes
and leave me
                    to grow.

Return to find me
years
centuries
millenia
from now.
I will encompass all
as the quaking,
benevolent creature
of my fearsome heart’s desire.

 

© CASEE MARIE